the topic of being courted has been an issue for a while in my life right now...

and it has been in my mind lately too...

the fact about how i feel about it..

is still undetermined upto this extent...

i am not a hypocrite.

i know that for a fact, knowing someone likes you or someone is attracted to you, is something that is good to think.

what i'm trying to say is that, i am pretty much flattered about the idea.

i admit, i have lots of insecurities.

i am not pretty, my mom even told me that.

even guys in my highschool days find me, well, weird.

they don't like being paired up to me

and the idea of someone liking me is miraculous to my classmates ears.

so, that is where my insecurities started.

but when i stepped up to college, i was shocked when guys started professing their love to me.

some even flirted with me, and so i flirt back.

hearing words like "you're pretty" or "you're so cute" is enough to put my confidence to sky high!

hahaha.

right now, i have a boyfriend.

then there were guys who asked me, if they could court me.

but, instead of the flattered feelings and whatnots, i feel.... NOT so good about it.

KINIKILABUTAN ako.

maybe because, i just don't want it.

i respect my boyfriend, so i don't entertain them.

and i want guys to be my friends not another complication in my life.

i just dont feel good about it.

haha.